when your day is glum, blog.

I'm extremely frustrated. Today, I feel very unappreciated. That's all I'm going to say.

I got to talk to my brother Dylan today. Man, it was really nice to hear his voice. I miss that guy.

The other thing that's hard, is the fact that I'm at the age when all of my closest friends have different schedules or they are on missions.

I did get to do something else that I enjoy today which was go to institute and read the book The Hunger Games.

Tonight is FHE and I'll probably go running tonight.

But honestly, I love my life even if I had a glum day.

the sabbath day is a special day.

I love being a member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. I love wearing my CTR ring and trying to live my life by only choosing the right. I love going to sacrament meeting and being able to partake of the sacrament. I love going to my church meetings and feeling of the spirit that is there continually. I love listening to the speakers in church and learning through the spitit.

Yesterday at church, Nathan was the speaker. He did a really great job. Not only does he know what he is talking about but he is a really good speaker. The topic he spoke on was judging others. Like everyone else in this world, I find myself judging others quite frequently, when really I shouldn't be. The thing that really stuck with me from his talk was that you have to judge but, you have to judge righteously. We all have to make judgements in life. It's actually something that I find myself having to do almost everyday. What I need to focus on is making sure that my judgements are righteous. That they are something the Lord would want us to do and that they are something that will allow the spirit to continuse to dwell with us.

I truly love life no matter what.

February 27, 2011

On February 27, 1992, Jon and Carene Wilson recieved a phone call that would change their life. They got the call that their daughter was ready for them to come get. The adoption was finally going to happen. It was Jon's birthday and he really didn't realize how great of a birthday present he was getting!

My father means the world to me. He not only has been my parent but, he has been my friend. I have a lot of memories with my father but, the thing I miss is our monthly PPI's. I loved that time with my dad because it was the only time that I felt that he actually set everything else aside that was going on in his life to focus on just me and my needs.

My dad is one of the most hard working people I know. I don't know if I would be the person I was today if I didn't have him as an example. His testimony has strengthened mine countless times. I love you daddy!

lovin' life no matter what.

we're goin' to party..

cause its my birthday.

YES YES YES! I'm finally 19. The dumb thing I realized though is that it doesn't matter that I'm 19, I can still do the same old stuff I did when I was 18. Whooopie! Oh age is just but a number when you turn 18. (Atleast that's how I feel.)

I woke up on Friday and just didn't feel any different. My brain started running all over the place just thinking about everything I needed to do before I went to my 8 o'clock math class. I was actually contemplating not even going and just emailing my teacher to tell him I didn't go to class cause it was my birthday. But, then I realized how foolish I was being and decided that I need to be a big girl and put my big girl panties on and go to class.

So, I hopped right out of bed and headed straight for the bathroom to start doing my normal routines when I found the following on my mirror:

For those of you who can't read it this is what it says: HAPPY BIRTHDAY LEX! Okay.. So here's the deal.. Yes it's true.. I decided to write you a sappy love poem for your B-Day. So check it.. there are 6 stanzas to the poem, and you've got to find them all (6) throughout your entire day and peice those puppies together! Good Luck! And Happy Birthday! Love Nathan.

That would be when I realized that the day wasn't going to be like any other day. It was my special day that I got once a year! I got really excited and I really couldn't stop smiling! Every note came with a purple tulip which are my favorite flowers! I was thoroughly impressed that he had remembered.

Anyways, I'm getting ready to walk out the door and my roommate Shantae tells me to check the fridge. I was thinking like really you know I'm about to walk out and I'm running late already! But I'm glad I did go look! This is what I found:

It was a little Justin Bieber bear that was holding a tulip and the next stanza to the poem. That's when I really got excited for the rest of the stanza's. The poem just kept getting cuter and cuter!

So, I go to my math class completely just ready to be done with school so that I could see Nathan and just spend the rest of the day with him. I go to English and it was canceled. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME! (I hate my English class) Then I have Anthropology and I'm just getting really ancy to get my next notes which is funny cause in walks Nathan's friend Bryce with a purple tulip and the next stanza! Man, was I smiling! Then in walks Jamie with another one! I got two in one class period! I read the next stanza's and I couldn't wait to get the next notes so I could read the whole note. I honestly was just anxious to get out of that class so I could go to lunch and finally see Nathan! I really needed to start thanking him for everything!

Well, I finally get out of class and get to see Nathan. We go home and he made me mac and cheese and hot dogs for lunch which was yummy! For some reason I needed to go into my room and when I did, my bed was made and there were balloons and gifts with other thoughtful cute notes!

This Cinderella coloring book had a tulip and a note on it that said: "I promised we would color in a coloring book sometime right? Well, what better day than your B-DAY! We'll do it tonight :) HAPPY BIRTHDAY!" Cute huh?!

Then he got me a new Justin Bieber poster and the book the Hunger Games. I was really excited! He is so cute! I also found the fifth and sixth stanza for the poem. The poem was so cute!

Then the rest of the day was really simple. We watched 24, went on a run, ate french toast, went to an institute activity, he played guitar for me, watcher more 24, and went to bed. I wouldn't have asked for a better birthday though!

Thank you, Nathan. I love my life.

Nathan Smith was born on February 23..

1989.

I don't know if anything significant happened that year except the fact Nathan was born!

The day started out as a dreary cold day, which really is all Thatcher seems to be having lately. I hurried and got ready for my dreadful eight o'clock class. I was really ready for school to be done so I could start on all of my little surprises for Nathan. I started out in the morning by just leaving a simple note on his car that said happy birthday!

We had Book of Mormon so of course I had to slip and tell people it was his birthday! You have to let people know it's someone's special day or else you are unamerican.

Lunch time came around and we had his favorite, the classic grilled cheese sandwhich with some good ole tomatoe soup. We also watched 24, a tv series, which has started to become a lunch/ dinner time ritual. It was a good lunch!

We had Spanish and yes I did the American thing and let the class know it was his birthday. So our teacher announced instead of us singing to him, he had to sing to us in Romanian. (Nathan went to Romania on his mission and he just recently got back in October of 2010.) I love hearing him speak and sing Romanian!

After Spanish, I went home while he went to his next class. Oh boy did I have a blast! Nathan lives in the trailers across the street from my apartment and out from of his trailer there is this cement slab/sidewalk. So, I decided to chalk it on up! This was the end product:

I loved doing this! It was so much fun! I then made these really cute signs that I sat on his bed with his gift! I got him this really handsome purple ash wash hoodie and a grey v-neck. Oh and I also put balloons on his bed! It was fun!

We went to the Clont's house for dinner and they gave him a gift card which he loved! I made him his favorite cake funfetti with my mom's yummy cream cheese frosting. It was a hit! I invited his friends over and we sang and ate yummy cake! It was fun!

The last surprise of the night was just going to the temple and looking at the stars. We had fun just spending time with each other.

Nathan is such a blessing in my life. He continually makes me want to become a better person just by his example that he sets for me everyday. I'm so grateful that he is a worthy priesthood holder and that he is able to give me blessings at anytime! I'm so blessed to have him! I really love having him in my life!

And of course, I'm lovin life no matter what :)

President's Day Weekend. A three day weekend means what?

IT MEANS NO MORE STRESSING ABOUT SCHOOL!

What a perfect weekend, break, stress reliever ever! I couldn't have asked for a better weekend!! Nathan and I decided that it would be nice to meet each others parents so, we did just that! Friday after school we packed up his cute little Ford five seater hatchback Focus and were on our way to Mesa to stay with my family for a bit.

Friday night, Nathan and I had our own little date night. It was so fun! We went to AMC and saw the movie UNKNOWN. I didnt feel very well during the movie, which resulted in me falling asleep during a part of it, but the movie really was a five star fantastic movie! I would recommend it in a heart beat to anyone.

Saturday. We woke up and got on our way to go get Nathan's oil changed but, the place we were going wasn't open. You would think on a Saturday that they would be open, come on! Luckily, it wasn't a big deal that we didn't get it done. We ended up heading over to his grandparents house and they gave all of this yummy citrus. There is enough at my apartment to last for a very long time! Nathan's grandparents love politics so that's all they were talking about! But that's perfectly fine especially since that's what I'm majoring in. Then we went and met up with my family, Ashley, and her kids to go out to eat for my birthday! We went to Macaroni Grill. Man oh man was the food delicious! Such a fun time with the family!

Later Saturday, we went to Ross and Target to go shopping! I got Nathan's birthday present, some really cute shoes, and a shirt. Such a fun time! We then went to Barnes and Noble and I grabbed the bood "The Hunger Games" to read while Nathan caught up on some homework. We were there for a little over three hours and I think I can speak for the both of us by saying it was the most relaxing time.

Sunday. Nathan and I packed up the car and headed to church with my family. We just stayed for Sacrament but I was very happy to be sitting in that second row at church with my family again. I missed them so much. We said our goodbye's and headed out to Phoenix to spend the rest of our Sunday with Nathan's family. The first thing that I met when we arrived was his families dogs. They are so adorable! They have a mut called Pepe. He is a black and white really small dog but, he is super smart. Their family also has a pug named Abby. She is the only girl in their family so, of course she is the princess of the family! We then went to church with his brother Daniel. They have a huge ward! It was a really good Sacrament meeting. Nathan's parents then came home and we had a delicious dinner with them! The rest of the day was just spent talking with their family and we watched this tv show called Murlin. Nathan and I then stayed up for a while and talked. I won't lie, I didn't think the weekend good get any better then it already had been!

Monday. I finally got to sleep in a little longer then the rest of the weekend. It was very nice to sleep in Nathan's temper pudic bed. (Sorry for making you sleep on the couch babe!) I really dreaded going back to Thatcher and going back to my twin box spring mattress after that! We got ready and headed out with his family to go celebrate his birthday at PF CHANGS. I loved PF Changs. The food was amazing! It was really fun just talking, eating, and watching how his family interacts with each other. The Smith family is such an awesome family! Nathan and I then packed up the car to head out to go back to school but, we didn't forget to go shopping of course! We took a detour to the local Old Navy and had a blast picking out a new outfit. Who doesn't love clothes?!

The weekend as you can see was non-stop go go go but what an amazing blessing it was to get a break from school! I'm so grateful for my family and the Smith family! I really am lovin life no matter what!

February. Well the first half atleast.

What a crazy month February has been! School is keeping me as busy as ever! I am enjoying all of my classes, well except my English class. The class I'm in makes me feel like I'm back in junior high. The teacher is continually disorganized. But I should just be grateful that I'm able to attend school where I do! I got my first "A" on a Spanish test just last week and man was I so excited! A 96% is a huge deal for me! It made me realized that I am actually smart!

I have been spending a lot of time with my handsome boyfriend Nathan Smith! We have a lot of fun together. One day, when we were feeling very adventurous, we went out in Thatcher and explored this old barn that I have been wanting to explore for a while now! We found the coolest things! We found this old chevy truck, an old cash register, an old 50's stove and this fridge that who knows how old it is! It really was a blast!

Of course, Valetine's Day was this month. Nathan got me a rose, a card and he made me the cutest cake!

Cute right?! I didn't have a lot of time to do anything because I had class all day and I don't have a car to make it to the store but, I did do something. I got all of these pieces of paper and I wrote him all of these notes. On each note, I told him something that I liked about him. It was really fun because it made me realize how lucky I am! I hid those notes all over his room and different places so that he would find them eventually. Simple Valentine's day. I loved it!

I can honestly say that I'm lovin' life no matter what.

2011. here's to a new year.

2011.


A new year. A new beginning. The thought thrills me.





January was a great month. A lot of up and downs, but I can honestly say that I'm so proud of myself.


I had an emergency surgery to remove a cyst from my left ovary. While Dr. Hale was performing the surgery he found more issues. I had a blood sack.. (a fairly abnormal size one) and internal bleeding. Man was I happy that I had gone in for my annual female check up! The doctor told me that if they hadn't found the problems they did, when they did, there was a chance that the cyst would have burst when i was at school and I would have died. The Lord loves me. That's all that I can say. I really don't think I have ever understood how much he truly does love me until I went through this trial.


I did start my second semester up at good old Eastern Arizona. I love it so much. The work load is ridiculous but I can say that I'm a lot better student then I was before. I have an awesome guy that pushes me to do better in school so, it really does help alot.



I love the Institute here at EA. I'm taking a Book of Mormon class and a class that's called Teachings of the Living Prophets. It really is such a blessing to have institute so close! It's not even 5 minutes from where I live!



I have made it my goal to make 2011 one of the best years I will have. But even if it isn't I will keep lovin' life no matter what.