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Who says your not good enough?

Satan does. Man do I H-A-T-E him. That probably isn't the most Christ like thing to say but, honestly, he is very hurtful.

Everyone talks about how there are all these things to look out for. That he has all the traps set up and we need to be better to not let him in. But, who out of those people haven't fallen for his traps?

I am one of those people, who falls into his traps. I can look at myself in the mirror and just think, "Wow, look another zit. Dang my eyebrows are not very well groomed. Stupid teeth, you aren't very white. Come on boobs. Why aren't you a little bigger?" But what good does that honestly do for me? IT DOESN'T DO ANY GOOD!

Satan constantly works on me everyday. When I was dating Nathan, he was always putting these ideas in my mind that I was never good enough for him, especially that I didn't fit into his life style. When really, it was just the opposite. Everything that he had, he worked for. I was good enough because HELLO I was dating him!

Satan also puts temptations in my path and he does it mostly with entertainment. I have Netflix at my apartment at school that my roommate and I share. We love to watch tv shows and movies on it! But,the bad thing is that we have access to movies that we honestly shouldn't have access to. There are way to many rated 'R' movies out there! It's really easy to just say, "oh, they only have a few cuss words." Or even say, "There is only one nude scene!" It's a very Satan-ic way to think and the said thing is, everyone is guilty of doing it once in their life.

Even though I have the issue with letting Satan in a lot, I'm not going to let him determine if I'm going to be happy for not. OR if I'm lovin life.

Because I am, loving life no matter what.

Anger is not an expression of strength..

Anger is not an expression of strength. It si an indication of one's inablility to control his thought, words, his emotions...when the weakness of anger takes over, the strength of reason leaves.

-Gordon B. Hinckley

This week (man) was not a good one at all.

Do you know how hard it is to get over heartbreak? It hasnt even been a full week and I have cried so much, lost a bunch of sleep, haven't been eating, and my personal hygine levels have dramatically changed. But you know what, life goes on. I care the world for that boy still and if I had my choice I wouldn't change the week for anything.

It really is my fault. I am an awfully contentious person. I am such a weak person. I really have so much growing up to do. It sucks to admit that I don't have hardly any strength. I am someone that lets my pride take over everything.

I was talking to a friend and he gave me some suggestions on how to not be prideful. So, my goal is to not be prideful, to serve others. So, I'm going to atleast one act of service a day and blog about it. Maybe you'll even get a picture of the service!

I got to go home to Mesa. I'm finally able to see them. It's spring break for me and I was suppose to stay in Thatcher and find a job but, I would have sat and wallowed in self pitty.

I am loving life no matter what though.